Apple Muffins and …

applemuffinValentine’s Day… A day that is supposed to be filled with love and romance. Well, it’s filled with love; at least on my part it is…

My first Valentine’s Day spent alone since 1993. Yup it’s been 18 years since I have had to buy own chocolates!

I am alone by choice. Even though my heart is broken and is refusing to mend itself…I am the one who broke it. It was I that handed my heart over to RS and said “…here’s my heart, use it, mistreat it, and make sure to break it when you’re done”. In the end that is exactly what he did…

I still believe in love…I’m just a little more reserved now a days with my love. Even though I have met another (SH)…I still found it hard to share my hearts’ love, secrets, and desires with him. And when my heart did not receive the much needed reassurance from him…I once again stomped all over the love I had for him and took my love far away. About 948 miles away…

So, I find myself in the kitchen in the early hours of this magical day called Valentine’s; filling glassine bags with French butter cookies, World Peace Cookies, heart shaped Sugar Cookies, and tying them each with perfectly pink ribbon.

If only I knew how to share my heart as freely as I share beautifully baked cookies with others. If only…